Have I found the love of my life?

So there is a guy at my gym that I think I’m in love with. What’s weird is that this guy has been at my gym from day one, and although I’ve always thought him attractive, I’ve never had the strange feelings that I’m having now! I literally want him to pin me against a wall and..

Well I’m sure you can imagine the nature of my thoughts – and as you may well know, they are causing me much frustration!!

So I ask myself the question ‘what’s changed’? Why have I suddenly developed these intense feelings towards this man? Is it because I’m finally starting to realise that time doesn’t stop for anyone, and I need to find myself a husband? Or is it simply just physical? Maybe I just need somebody to make me feel alive again..

Please tell me that, like me, others run away with their thoughts too. I’ve already envisioned our romantic first date – the way our conversation will just flow and how after eating dinner we’ll go for a slow walk in the still and starlit sky – not to mention our secluded wedding in Bali. Is this deemed normal behaviour or do I need to be sectioned under the mental health act?

I often think my biggest downfall in life is that I’m a romanticist – I believe that there is somebody out there for me who will just get me, and accept me, and want to be with me forever. And maybe the horror stories should give me a reality check – some people cheat like there’s no more tomorrow – but I’d like to believe that that won’t happen to me. That I will be the one to end up with a gentleman. I want to feel electric sparks each time he touches me; I want that first kiss to melt me; I want to be held by him and feel like I’m finally home..

Maybe I’m being greedy and asking for too much, or maybe, just maybe, I’m being brave by not settling for anything less than I deserve..

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